Wisdom Notes-23

The Past Showed Up Smelling Good, Dressed In New Clothes That Covered The Old Ones; Wearing The Same Shoes That Walked On My Heart; Speaking The Same Words That Woke-Up Old Feelings To Set Familiar Traps. What Do I Do?

Close my eyes, nose, mouth, butt and ears, turn around and run like hell!

Words

Words today hold no meaning; no one has the same meaning for the same words. People use words to meet a need, to feed their greed, to create a comfort zone and to get where they want to be.

Words are the most powerful thing in the universe. Words are a form of communication used in a negative or positive way; Words alter life for a life time; Words destroy, re-build, restore, remold, build-up, tear-down, mend or damage a soul; A spoken Word gives life; A spoken Word can make a heart feel like dying; Words encourage and discourage; Words can change a life for better or worst; Words can be food for the soul or kill the spirit; Words can portray as a knife and cut your world into; Words can be a beautiful thing if they are spoken in a beautiful way; Words can be evil and plant seeds of FEAR; Words can bless and words can curse; Words can direct your path or cause you to stray; Words bring peace or words can start a war; Words can open doors and those same words can imprison; Words can keep you bound and words can set your free. Words can make a difference between life and death.

From My Heart Reality: Words have lost their meaning. People don’t care anymore about what they say or how their words affect others. This is my purpose for writing this book. Words and actions are all we have in order to communicate. Use them wisely.

Poetry

HE WROTE…. My first love, words cannot describe how special you are to me. I will always love you. J. S.

Over 20 years now, I walk by his picture, a glance turns into a stare…. I can’t move, hypnotized. I can’t feel the breath that I take. The mire thought of every seeing him again… it would truly be a dream come true. It would be amazing if we could be once more. I look at his picture, my heart feels as if he were just here, standing beside me. His kiss was a drug-I closed my eyes for a moment, days seemed like weeks gone by. His body, the gods would envy… Everything about him was perfect- head to toe. I look at his picture… he love we made, no words could express. His sense of humor was like sunshine, warming my soul. I would get lost in his presence… I would stop breathing until he would come again. His love was pure and devoting only to whom he loved most. His love was sincere as the love of a child. Yet, he was wise, caring, gentle, understanding ….. He was all that one person could ever dream of. Beautiful as he was on the outside, he was just as beautiful inside. His tears, when he said good-bye… still run down my face. That’s the first time I had seen a real man cry. I miss my soul mate.

Sincere Love

Having a sincere heart in this day and time, is a dangerous thing. It’s unbelievable to some and a punching bag to others. Having the mind of Christ, putting other’s first, being the last; giving and never receiving back; believing someone is truly innocent until proven guilty and forgiving as God has forgiven us. Having a sincere heart for Christ and holding the words of God close to your heart and trying to live by those words… being humble, meek and merciful: being a sheep in a field of wolves.

From My Heart: God had to teach me how to love, when to love, how much love to give, what kind of love they will understand and accept or if to love and just walk away. He’s teaching me that I am responsible for my own heart as well as my own body, to protect my heart, mind, body, spirit, soul and trust Him for the protection of those that I love. I have a right to protect myself. Forgive and walk away because you know your self-worth and you deserve better. People will chew you up and spit you out and hurt you just because they can, some are hell-bent on breaking you into, just to see how much you love them or just to see you cry in humiliation. Bricks and Cotton-balls don’t mix but it’s by nature that the strong seek out the weak.

It’s You

Poetry

It’s YOU If my body is wash whiter than snow or covered with filth; If my ears cannot hear and my eyes cannot see; If I prosper or prosper not, blessed or blessed not, it is you; If I cry, You are the reason for my tears, if I laugh it’s because you are my joy; If I lose, it is You that allow it to be taken or If I gain, it is You that giveth.

If my world crumbles and falls apart; If I lose my children, my family, my friends or lose the ability to think, feel and function, it’s You; If I sink to bottom of the ocean or able to climb the highest mountain, it’s you that allows; If I am lost or put in a jail cell beneath three decades of graves, I know you will save me. If I live, it’s because You gave me life; If I die, it is You that allow my life to be taken.

If I rise above a thousand hills or sink in sinking sands; If I am in the hospital bed filled with hopeless pain or going through life with no pain at all, it’s You. If my soul stayed anchored in You or if my soul stray; If my broken heart is healed or remain torn; If my heart is harden or harden not, it’s You

If I died today and saw heaven or died tomorrow and saw Hell, You will be with me. Because I believe you’ll be where ever I am, I am a complete a thought from the words spoken from your heart. You are my beginning and my end. Whatever happens or happens not; You allow because it’s part of your plan for my life and my life is you.

My Mother

Poetry

I see why my mother walked with her head down sometimes; remembering the cracks in the sidewalks and the rocks on the ground; occasionally glancing up to see which way she was going; feeling like her today’s being no different than your yesterdays. She was only left with memories & regret as if time itself was already set.

I understand my mother tears …the tears that ran down my mother’s face …the tears that only filled her eyes …..the tears she held inside and the tears she couldn’t cry. I understand the Tears that soothe her soul and ease the heart …. tears that fell when feelings that had no words and words had no meaning … tears that restored strength….. yesterday tears that had pride. I know the love of her heart and depth of her soul, the spirit of “knowing” and the wisdom of a woman a thousand years old.

I live the life of my mother; my heart beats at the rhythm of her soul, my steps…a continuation of her journey. I am my mother’s child. I see why my mother walked with her head down sometimes.

Making Love (In This Day & Time)

Making love in this time is a physical act between two or more people; A way to express feelings without words; An act that determines the continuation of a relationship; A form of closeness on temporary basis; Words to make Sex sound better.

From My Heart: Making love doesn’t start in the bedroom. It starts with a ride in the car, the living room, out on dates, a phone call at lunch, conversation during dinner, working together and accomplishing goals together, listening and talking about all things, making each other laugh and holding each other during the tears, appreciating the love and time that you share.

Making love starts the moment you get out of bed and start finding ways to make your relationship work. What you do outside the bedroom determine if your sex is called Making Love. If the only time you feel loved is during sex, it’s not love making at all.

Last Words

Last Words (Before The Good-Byes): Don’t go, Don’t leave, Please Stay, Don’t die, Don’t give up, Please give us another try, Can we start over, Please listen, Please let me explain, Please understand, Please don’t walk away, It just happened, Please say something. I have to go, I’m not coming back, I’m leaving, I’m gone for good this time, It’s over, I’m done, I can’t take no more, We’re finished, Don’t ever come back, Get out, I don’t want you anymore, Why are you still here, I’m not in love with you anymore, Why won’t you leave, Why can’t you stay, I didn’t mean too, I didn’t try too, I didn’t think, I didn’t know, It’s not you it’s me, I’m sorry, Goodbye.

From My Heart: The moment when there is nothing you can do, say, think, feel, pray, beg, cry could change that moment. You want to speak from the depth of your soul but all you can do is be still, wait, listen, accept and obey. Sometimes, in certain situations, there is no undo-s, redo-s, start over-s or forgiveness. Life goes on. Everything begins and ends. Everything has a start and a finish. Everything changes. Nothing stays the same. Everyone lives and everyone will die. People come and people go. Just appreciate what you have and trust God for the rest. Nothing and nobody belongs to you. So, when it’s time to lose what you have, give up what you’ve been holding on to…. Let it go, Let them go.

No one but God is forever.

Kind Words

Words that should be spoken from the heart; Words that people forget to say that would really make a difference; Words that comfort the heart and mend the soul; Words that redirect a heart; Words that open close doors and find lost love; Kind words, in this day and time, are never spoken.

From My Heart: Kind Words: Thank you. I believe in you. Please. You’re beautiful. Good job. A job well done. You’re sweet. You’re kind. Without you, I am nothing. Please forgive me. You are wondering and amazing. You are the only person that has ever done this for me, thank you. You are my world. You are my reason living. You complete my life and you make my world worth living. I enjoy your company. I miss you, etc…