Wisdom Notes-21

How Do You Make A Heart Believe That It Deserves Love, Honor, Respect & It Deserves The Best?

How Do You Make A Heart Protect Its Own Preciousness & Still Love?

How Do Contain A Heart That Starves To Be Love?

I don’t have all the answers, but I do know that a weary and damaged heart usually finds the answers a little too late. You have One Heart, One Soul & One Spirit and they were made to protect eachother. Know your worth.

The Soul

The soul is our truth; pure; just; the home of your conscience; fragile; compassionate; it is more of your heart than your heart; it’s true love of us that attract love, that wantingness to be loved; your soul-the place where it’s your last chance to do right; your righteousness; a bonding place. The tears that come from your soul are deeper than that of your heart. Every soul is repairable, restorable, re-moldable/clay, changeable, remarkable and savable… because the soul is your unconditional love.

From My Heart: You cannot find the soul unless you have the spirit of God. Everyone was born with a soul. Even if you cannot feel anymore, your soul still holds love. In the old testament of the Bible, they built an Ark of the Lord and God put a part of himself in it and if you were not a chosen Priest, you could or would die if you touched it. Your soul is like that-a part of God’s lives inside us all.

Last Words

Last Words (Before The Good-Byes): Don’t go, Don’t leave, Please Stay, Don’t die, Don’t give up, Please give us another try, Can we start over, Please listen, Please let me explain, Please understand, Please don’t walk away, It just happened, Please say something. I have to go, I’m not coming back, I’m leaving, I’m gone for good this time, It’s over, I’m done, I can’t take no more, We’re finished, Don’t ever come back, Get out, I don’t want you anymore, Why are you still here, I’m not in love with you anymore, Why won’t you leave, Why can’t you stay, I didn’t mean too, I didn’t try too, I didn’t think, I didn’t know, It’s not you it’s me, I’m sorry, Goodbye.

From My Heart: The moment when there is nothing you can do, say, think, feel, pray, beg, cry could change that moment. You want to speak from the depth of your soul but all you can do is be still, wait, listen, accept and obey. Sometimes, in certain situations, there is no undo-s, redo-s, start over-s or forgiveness. Life goes on. Everything begins and ends. Everything has a start and a finish. Everything changes. Nothing stays the same. Everyone lives and everyone will die. People come and people go. Just appreciate what you have and trust God for the rest. Nothing and nobody belongs to you. So, when it’s time to lose what you have, give up what you’ve been holding on to…. Let it go, Let them go.

No one but God is forever.

Emotions

Poetry

My emotions, reminds me that I’m human, compassionate, patient and merciful Yet, my emotion let people like you, use and abuse me My emotions help me to put up with people like your ass My emotions are what separate me from you So next time you think that I’m being “too emotional” Think twice honey, my emotions are the reason you’re still alive.

Confusion

Confusion is a mind shifting in the wind without directions or purpose; easy to detour; unstable in every way. A confused mind struggles to make healthy decisions. Confusion can blind the heart.

Confusion: Being raised to believe one thing but heart and spirit learns differently and your torn between the two; When people hurt your heart but your heart still wants to love the one that caused the hurt; Hating your mate but loving the children you share; Struggling to be someone you’re not; trying to fit in with crowds that you don’t belong in; Doing wrong when you know what is right; Hating your job but you need the money to provide for your family; Trying to balance life, love, foolishness, self struggles, finances when all you can think about is being free; Confused between the lessons of your past and being positive about your future; The struggle between good and evil.

From My Heart: To avoid confusion- make a choice, make a decision, hold on or let go, stay or go, hang in there or walk away, believe or not believe, trust or don’t trust, do what is wrong or do what is right, be who you are and suffer the outcome or be who everyone expect you to be and be happy either way, change or stay the same. Make up your mind and heart. Take responsibility for your choices and actions. Live with your mistakes or forgive yourself and move on. Nothing makes sense without truth and honesty within one’s self.

GirlScout Cookies

Poetry Girl Scout Cookies (by Ms Doggett)

He walks through the door and says “Honey I’m home” as if I’m not standing here looking at him. He turns to put his coat on the rack by the door. I sweetly said, “Glad your home honey, Shelia called”. His coat and shoes must have weighed a ton because he didn’t move an inch and I wasn’t sure he was still breathing. Like the news-paper funny pages, I could see that little white balloon above his head filled with the words “damn, damn, damn, no -she- didn’t”.

He turn to speak but I cut him off and said don’t worry about, we’ll talk later and I left him standing there and headed to the kitchen and fixed his plate. The tension at the dinner table… you could cut it with a chainsaw. We got ready for bed, room filled with guilty silence, regret and no eye contact. He reaches for me and says “I’m sorry” and I said “Sorry for what”. He said that he only slept with her once and I looked at him and said, “She called to see if you still wanted her Girl Scout Cookies”. Well, I guess you do.

One Extreme To Another

Poetry
One Extreme To Another: There has never been a balance within my thinking I go from one extreme to another and there is never a-in-between Either I’m helpless romantic or a realist, compassionate or cold hearted Either a wife at heart or a whore by nature, a friend or an enemy Either I’m mad to a dangerous degree or there’s nothing you do to tick me off Either I go all the way or I don’t go at all, forever or never Either I give 100 percent or 1 percent, pour my heart out or allow my feelings to die One extreme or the other, a woman of God or a woman of the world Adjust, adapt, improvise and survive; these could be my reasons Hey, I’m still a work in process.

Broken Spirited

Broken Spirited Defined: When the doors are closed in your face too many times; When hard times last a little too long; When problems come a little too often; When nothing good ever last; When no one is ever there for you when you need them the most; When your worst outweigh your bad and there is no comfort in your nights or days…A broken spirit …. your faith become thin as the skin of a dry leaf; your spirit grows weary and your prayers fade in the ceiling; tears harden your heart; your strength feels like it left your body to defend for itself; you’re emotions becomes numb; your mind is at stand still like stagnate water and your soul broken into a million pieces.
Your what-ever-attitude says that you have given up. You go to church and can’t lift your hands to give God praise. You want to speak life to your situation but your lips won’t move. You’ve given up trying to make it work because all your hopes are gone. You listen to people trying to say things to encourage you but you can’t hear them. Your eyes are open but you can’t see. Going through the motions of everyday life and nobody sees your pain. Tears behind the smile and hurt behind the laughter. Your prayers are short and to the point because you don’t feel that God hears you. All your memories of hurt, pain and all the bad things drown your spirit. And you find yourself mad at God to only find that satan had a plan for you before you were born and your people in your past and your own choices played a part in his plan.