Wisdom Notes-24

When You Are Blind: You Hear Things Differently; You See Things Differently; You Feel Things Differently; You Walk Differently; You Touch Things Differently…

The same is with life: when you’re going through things, you handle accordingly to how you feel inside. It affects your decisions and the way you handle things; it affects the way you see things and it affects the way you get things done.

Hurt, Pain, Lost, Fear & Needs has a way of getting in the way of your blessings.

The Soul

The soul is our truth; pure; just; the home of your conscience; fragile; compassionate; it is more of your heart than your heart; it’s true love of us that attract love, that wantingness to be loved; your soul-the place where it’s your last chance to do right; your righteousness; a bonding place. The tears that come from your soul are deeper than that of your heart. Every soul is repairable, restorable, re-moldable/clay, changeable, remarkable and savable… because the soul is your unconditional love.

From My Heart: You cannot find the soul unless you have the spirit of God. Everyone was born with a soul. Even if you cannot feel anymore, your soul still holds love. In the old testament of the Bible, they built an Ark of the Lord and God put a part of himself in it and if you were not a chosen Priest, you could or would die if you touched it. Your soul is like that-a part of God’s lives inside us all.

My Mother

Poetry

I see why my mother walked with her head down sometimes; remembering the cracks in the sidewalks and the rocks on the ground; occasionally glancing up to see which way she was going; feeling like her today’s being no different than your yesterdays. She was only left with memories & regret as if time itself was already set.

I understand my mother tears …the tears that ran down my mother’s face …the tears that only filled her eyes …..the tears she held inside and the tears she couldn’t cry. I understand the Tears that soothe her soul and ease the heart …. tears that fell when feelings that had no words and words had no meaning … tears that restored strength….. yesterday tears that had pride. I know the love of her heart and depth of her soul, the spirit of “knowing” and the wisdom of a woman a thousand years old.

I live the life of my mother; my heart beats at the rhythm of her soul, my steps…a continuation of her journey. I am my mother’s child. I see why my mother walked with her head down sometimes.

Heart Surgery

Poetry

How do I begin to do surgery on your heart when my own heart is so messed up because of you. I guess, I could operate with my eyes closed and pray for the best. Is your heart mine to operate on or change as I please? I guess hypnosis would have the same effect as surgery

If I change your heart, the flow of your blood, would that change your soul? If I re-wired your heart to feel a certain way, then whom would you be. Heart surgery won’t change your spirit of distance or make you love me. If the heart is the mind… brain surgery could be dangerous to your whole body.

Isn’t it funny how, without your heart beating and brain functions, there is no you. So, who is it that I really love about you? Would heart surgery be the answer to my prayers? No. Praying for your heart, spirit and soul would be surgery enough. God works from the inside out without complications and risk. God is the perfect surgeon of life and love. I’ll just have to make you an appointment with Jesus to get you right.

Distant

Distant: Space between you and another; invisible distance when standing face to face; Distant in closeness; silence, holding feelings in, secrets festering inside; needs un-met; seldom eye-to -eye contact and no touching; being in the same room but it feels like empty space- either exist. Each person has taken back their love. No reasons to talk, nothing left to say that will make a difference. Grown apart; nothing can be done; it’s all been done before. Going through the motions of love and everyday life; there is only an effort of politeness and civil kindness. Silence speaks louder than love.

From My Heart: Make a choice to stay or leave. Make a choice to love or not love. Make a choice to hold on to the love you have or let go and go on. Home is where the heart is, if your heart is not there-walk away. Agree to start over, forgive, change, try, talk, sacrifice or agree that it’s over. Life is too short to be unhappy in love. Family, children and friends will adjust and adapt to your decision as long as you’re still being loving in front of them. But know that God is not happy about divorce (love is supposed to endure all things). But God also knows that things happen and we all make wrong choices. I guess it’s just easier or convenient to stamp your situation “Complicated” and expect it to be acceptable. Man-up, Woman-up and make a choice and move on. Love is about compromise to make it work, but love is not “The Compromise”-either you love that person or you don’t.

Change

Change is taking action to be different than before. Change is not forced. It is a willingness inside that helps you to be different. It happens in a heart and mind of a person that has a desire to change.

From My Heart: Love does not change a heart but love does help the heart to change. Change for the sake of love or motivates-doesn’t last very long. Change to be married-your true selves will show its colors in time to come. Change to be free from bondage or prison- freedom will show up and cause you to be locked down again. I don’t know if any person can truly change without God. Changing without God, your old-self and old-ways will sit on your shoulders and wait for you to fail to crawl back in and take over again.

If you are praying for a change in someone else, remember that, God starts the change from within. That means that you may not see the change that God is doing but have faith and trust that He’s doing His part. In time, you’ll start to see small changes (first) on the outside from the big changes that God is doing on the inside. So don’t get in the way of what God is doing. Don’t continue to talk negative words to that person; don’t keep putting them down; don’t treat them like they are too far gone in sin for God to change them; don’t remind them how they use to be; don’t push them or pressure them. Pray for them. Be Silent.

Trust God. Believe in them and believe for them. Trust God for them. Pray before you speak to them. Believe that all things are truly possible with God. Nothing is too hard for God. Be patient while God is doing what God does. Let God be God.

For some people, it would be easier to crawl back into their mother’s womb than to change from the heart.