It Blesses My Heart To Love; It Blesses My Soul To Give; It Blesses My Everything To Care About Others & Being Needed Gives My Life Purpose.
I learned the hard way that my love, my giving, my caringness and my need to be needed was hindering certain People and getting in the way of God’s plan for their lives. I became their god and my God held my blessings up to keep me from hindering them.
God wanted a chance to show them how much he loved them if only they would trust in Him.
I see why my mother walked with her head down sometimes; remembering the cracks in the sidewalks and the rocks on the ground; occasionally glancing up to see which way she was going; feeling like her today’s being no different than your yesterdays. She was only left with memories & regret as if time itself was already set.
I understand my mother tears …the tears that ran down my mother’s face …the tears that only filled her eyes …..the tears she held inside and the tears she couldn’t cry. I understand the Tears that soothe her soul and ease the heart …. tears that fell when feelings that had no words and words had no meaning … tears that restored strength….. yesterday tears that had pride. I know the love of her heart and depth of her soul, the spirit of “knowing” and the wisdom of a woman a thousand years old.
I live the life of my mother; my heart beats at the rhythm of her soul, my steps…a continuation of her journey. I am my mother’s child. I see why my mother walked with her head down sometimes.
Covered: A shelter of love; a hedge of protection surrounding you. A rainbow of grace, mercy, love, understanding, forgiveness and compassion casting over you at all times. It’s like being covered by the Grace of God; A security blanket of God’s love; Covered by the Blood of Jesus and saved my His grace and mercy; Covered and held tightly in the arms of God every moment of every day. When someone prays for you and pray with you, two or more praying together… God is there. It’s Amazing to be covered.
From My Heart: I’ve only known the covering of God. But I once saw that covering in a relationship. He had to be a man after God’s own heart. Daily, he tried to love as God loves him. His prayers covered his wife like a hedge of protection. His spirit blessed her heart and blessed her ways in Christ. In his distance, she was close. In his silence, his prayers blessed people where ever he went and there was peace. At a touch of his hand, there was healing of the heart, mind, body and soul by God’s anointing flow through him. When he prayed, God heard him. He trusted God for his wife, for his ministry and for his life.
I tried to control you in us, for us. I tried to control what I didn’t understand. I tried to control what I was afraid of, losing you. You were the bird that stood in the palm of my hands. I held your feet to keep you from flying away from me, from us. I tried to be the god over us and take us in my own hands. I tried to control our future and our love. I tried to breathe and think for the both of us. You were all I saw, felt and thought about I couldn’t see me; I couldn’t see life without you, without us. I tried to secure what we shared by controlling our everyday. I tried to think for you and make the right decisions for us. I tried to control us because I was afraid of losing you I controlled you right out my life.