I asked your reasons for your wrong and to justify the nights I had to be alone. You said that you got lost in time, drinking with the guys and family. You said that you forgot my birthday because of the stress of your the job. You said you got caught up at work, in the zone and you couldn’t call home. Over the weekend, you said some things came up or you needed to finish what you were doing elsewhere.
You couldn’t hear me trying to make you understand how much you were missed and needed. Laying my heart at your feet so that you would know the love that awaits for you. I tried to reach the favor in your heart with understanding, mercy and patience. I stayed on my knees in pray, praying for us, needing God to be a part of what we share.
I stepped back for a moment to go over everything you’ve said, every excuse you feed my heart. You’re just another man/person with good intentions and a heart that means well. I need a little bit more than that because my time is just as precious as yours.
It’s important for me to be the beginning of your days and ending of your nights. I should be as valuable as the breath you breathe and the blood that flow through your body. I should be the time before time; our time is the foundation of our strength and wisdom. I should be the arms that relieve your stress and tense body, you should be running to me
When I’m gone, I guess you will realize how important I was to your life. Tonight, I get on my knees and pray for my own heart, my own soul, my own life. I may not be important to you but I am most important to Christ.